so i am going to have a birthday get-together in a few days and it’s not going to be very big because i don’t really have that many friends/they are more than i can keep up with as it is. i want it to be people i know because wow major social anxiety and that’s hard enough with people i know well. also i was going to cook for them (i think i bit off more than i can chew) i invited a friend (known 12 years, close for 8) who, even though i did not put ‘guests may invite friends’ as an option or anything, asked if she could bring her boy-toy whatever. he’s leaving soon so they will not be whatever for much longer and because of him i haven’t seen her in a long time.
see it’s just… it’s my birthday party and i’ve met him like twice and he didn’t remember he had met me the second time even though we spent several hours together the first time and i hate it when people are like that. seriously - i know i make quick judgments about things like that… but i don’t like him. i already feel like a nothing enough as it is, i don’t need people around who don’t acknowledge my existence. So why does she need to bring him to this small gathering of my friends when she has made essentially no effort for me to meet him before? i feel like its a “i finally have a boy, i want to show him off” thing… i feel like i’m being super selfish though, and i have to say he can come right? what do i do?